you just think


you just suffer and think. you think:"how do I get out of this?" Its a constant creaving. you would need high percetage alcohol and you know the higher the worse ists gonna be tomorrow. So you try to stick to beer and you pray , you beg you hope tomorrow it will be the day of the days and you can stop. But you have the vulcano in your somach and you think - I will never stop. and you are ashamed to your family. My wife is here with her daughter. Not about my wife, yes of course but her daughter watching me drink beer all day? What about my brothers and sisters? They all worry about me.
What a shit life - fuck fuck fuck - WIE DAS LEBEN SO SCHREIBT ...